YES!!!!! i'm under the 180 mark!!!!!! I can't believe i'm doing this!!! i can't believe i found something that has worked! I'm getting very excited for natalie birthday.....i'm gonna see ppl i haven't seen in awhile and i think it will be a good boost of confidence! well and its natalie's birthday lol
i'm wearing size 13 jeans, and my xl shirt is too big...oh boy....
i went to my parents attic and pulled out all the clothes i had up there. its a ridiculous amount. but i have to get them all washed and sorted through to see what i'll actually wear. probably not much of it.. .but there is a lot of jeans i can see myself wearing....expensive ones too
i'm excited for this to be over. i feel like i've become obsessed with it....
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
2-24-11
GREAT DAY!!!!!
End of week 1 on phase 1....
Thinking I've only lost about 7lbs, and possibly even gaining a pound due to "aunt flow" i was shocked when i got on the scale and it read 182.4 doing quick math in my head i was like okay well 7.4 lbs isnt bad definetly happy with that....ha, i guess 6am is too early to be doing math in my head!!! cause i've lost a totall of.......
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...........8.4 pounds this week!!!!!!! whoohoo whoohooo whoohooo
i can't wait till natalie's birthday party and everyone i haven't seen in a while is shocked at how much i've lost. gotta go to my parents this weekend and pull some clothes out of the attic that will be fitting me in the next month or so. gotta sort through them and wash them or donate what isnt my style anymore. Those clothes are my smallest size clothes......once they dont fit.. its all sweat pants and t's untill i'm completely done and i can go shopping!!!! i'm sooo very excited...also excited to give myself a reward by going to arizona and seeing my brothers... last time they saw me it was christmas and i was back up to 200lbs :-( i've lost a total 16.6 pounds since the last time i've seen them! and by the time i go down in may i am confident i will be down 65lbs!!!! that will be sooo amazing... (thats 65 from 200 not from today..)
i started this diet at 191.8 with a goal weight of 130. that means i'm going to try to lose 61.8lbs to make it easier i just stuck with 60. i now have 53.4 to go!!!! yay
End of week 1 on phase 1....
Thinking I've only lost about 7lbs, and possibly even gaining a pound due to "aunt flow" i was shocked when i got on the scale and it read 182.4 doing quick math in my head i was like okay well 7.4 lbs isnt bad definetly happy with that....ha, i guess 6am is too early to be doing math in my head!!! cause i've lost a totall of.......
......
.......
....
...........8.4 pounds this week!!!!!!! whoohoo whoohooo whoohooo
i can't wait till natalie's birthday party and everyone i haven't seen in a while is shocked at how much i've lost. gotta go to my parents this weekend and pull some clothes out of the attic that will be fitting me in the next month or so. gotta sort through them and wash them or donate what isnt my style anymore. Those clothes are my smallest size clothes......once they dont fit.. its all sweat pants and t's untill i'm completely done and i can go shopping!!!! i'm sooo very excited...also excited to give myself a reward by going to arizona and seeing my brothers... last time they saw me it was christmas and i was back up to 200lbs :-( i've lost a total 16.6 pounds since the last time i've seen them! and by the time i go down in may i am confident i will be down 65lbs!!!! that will be sooo amazing... (thats 65 from 200 not from today..)
i started this diet at 191.8 with a goal weight of 130. that means i'm going to try to lose 61.8lbs to make it easier i just stuck with 60. i now have 53.4 to go!!!! yay
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
2-23-11
habits...
a lot of things i've noticed in the past 6 days are directly related to mine and i'm sure many others weight gain. It's small things you'd never think of. What do you do when you have lets say a frosting or a sauce on your hand... Do you immediatly wipe it away or do what 90% of you do...LICK IT OFF. How about when you are making food... you taste it right...maybe one spoonfull, maybe 2, 3, 4 till its just right. When I make grilled cheese for the girls I usually eat natalie's crust cause she doesnt like it...i'm eating a healthy lunch and i think to myself... its like 1/24th of the calories i WOULD have eating if i had made a whole grilled cheese. right??? WRONG!!!! its still not good. making mac and cheese..oh i love mac and cheese...but i'll have a healthy lunch and then take bites of it as i'm serviing it up.. next thing i know, i've eating 10 bites...in my book thats eating a bowl of mac and cheese. it all adds up.
in addition to the amazing weight loss i've already experienced with this diet i've learned to control my urges...realize what habits i have that aren't good. and also to say no to the foods i DONT need. i thought this would be hard... saying no isnt the hardest part... its the habits you dont realize you had. like maybe taking a few extra bites of the dinner as you're puting it away in the fridge or that extra piece of garlic bread you have... then theres alcohol. As you may have read in previous posts its really bad!!! hidden calories for sure. you would never have thought you were drinking douple your daily intake of calories and almost 5 times the amount of carbs you need in a day. done drinking thats for sure. not to mention you can't have it on this diet.
habits are hard to break but i started wearing a towel on my sholder when i cook so i can easly just wipe my hands off and not think twice. also putting the food RIGHT after dinner is the best thing i can do.
I"m giving this my all....i'm expecting to get great results...
tomorrow is my weigh in and i'm hoping it goes good. i'm hoping for 10 but will settle for 9 lol
a lot of things i've noticed in the past 6 days are directly related to mine and i'm sure many others weight gain. It's small things you'd never think of. What do you do when you have lets say a frosting or a sauce on your hand... Do you immediatly wipe it away or do what 90% of you do...LICK IT OFF. How about when you are making food... you taste it right...maybe one spoonfull, maybe 2, 3, 4 till its just right. When I make grilled cheese for the girls I usually eat natalie's crust cause she doesnt like it...i'm eating a healthy lunch and i think to myself... its like 1/24th of the calories i WOULD have eating if i had made a whole grilled cheese. right??? WRONG!!!! its still not good. making mac and cheese..oh i love mac and cheese...but i'll have a healthy lunch and then take bites of it as i'm serviing it up.. next thing i know, i've eating 10 bites...in my book thats eating a bowl of mac and cheese. it all adds up.
in addition to the amazing weight loss i've already experienced with this diet i've learned to control my urges...realize what habits i have that aren't good. and also to say no to the foods i DONT need. i thought this would be hard... saying no isnt the hardest part... its the habits you dont realize you had. like maybe taking a few extra bites of the dinner as you're puting it away in the fridge or that extra piece of garlic bread you have... then theres alcohol. As you may have read in previous posts its really bad!!! hidden calories for sure. you would never have thought you were drinking douple your daily intake of calories and almost 5 times the amount of carbs you need in a day. done drinking thats for sure. not to mention you can't have it on this diet.
habits are hard to break but i started wearing a towel on my sholder when i cook so i can easly just wipe my hands off and not think twice. also putting the food RIGHT after dinner is the best thing i can do.
I"m giving this my all....i'm expecting to get great results...
tomorrow is my weigh in and i'm hoping it goes good. i'm hoping for 10 but will settle for 9 lol
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
2-22-2011
the reason you shouldnt weigh yourself every day when you are trying to lose weight....
--you get discourage when the scale is up a few ounces or nothing at all. today i weighed 155.6 thats a 1.6lbs more than i did on sunday... i couldnt tell you why. i did everything just as i'm supposed to do.
see my problem. now i beat myself up all day long not knowing what the problem is. so now its gone. the battery is out of the scale. i'll try again on thursday and hope for no more weight gain. :( with this diet its not like i can DO anything to progress my weight loss. if i work out i'll just gain muscle and that will make me weigh more. oh well....i'll just stick with it. see what happens. i want to loose 20 total by march 26th and at 7lbs down i'm already well on my way to that goal. now i just have to find the clothes in the storage unit that fit me at that size
--you get discourage when the scale is up a few ounces or nothing at all. today i weighed 155.6 thats a 1.6lbs more than i did on sunday... i couldnt tell you why. i did everything just as i'm supposed to do.
see my problem. now i beat myself up all day long not knowing what the problem is. so now its gone. the battery is out of the scale. i'll try again on thursday and hope for no more weight gain. :( with this diet its not like i can DO anything to progress my weight loss. if i work out i'll just gain muscle and that will make me weigh more. oh well....i'll just stick with it. see what happens. i want to loose 20 total by march 26th and at 7lbs down i'm already well on my way to that goal. now i just have to find the clothes in the storage unit that fit me at that size
Sunday, February 20, 2011
2-20-2011
man i'm doing freakin awesome!!!!
i thought yesturday would be hard, but luckly i have GREAT friends that support me. even went to arby's and i didnt have anyhting. i didnt even want the curly fries. then went to a few bars in bremerton adn had water. and i still had soo much fun!!! sucks that my pants were falling off of me! oh well. this will pass...
ANNNNND i lost another 2 pounds last night. thats 7 total sooo far. 3 more and i'll have lost 10 pounds and i'll be 181 pounds. pretty exciting!!! i know i shouldnt be excited to weigh sooo much but its a good thing for me. i weighed 184 last may so 181 is the smallest i've been in years. i'm very excited to hit 175!!! i looked sooo good at 175. i'll be even more excited when i reach 150!!! man 150 is what i weighed in high school. and although i thought i was fat i was WAY smaller than i am now. and then at 150 i'll be just 20lbs away from my goal weight!
i think its easier for me to go by 20's. set a goal of 20lbs and then go to the next 20lbs. so far since 8-18-09 i've lost a total of 46lbs. the sad part is its really more like 60 cause i've gained back 20 over last summer and then ten at the end of january. i now know the results of cheating on a diet. 60lbs is what i want to lose NOW. and adding it up makes me mad that i could have already been half way there if i'd stuck to it.
oh well live and learn right!!! hope everyone enjoys the sun!!!
i thought yesturday would be hard, but luckly i have GREAT friends that support me. even went to arby's and i didnt have anyhting. i didnt even want the curly fries. then went to a few bars in bremerton adn had water. and i still had soo much fun!!! sucks that my pants were falling off of me! oh well. this will pass...
ANNNNND i lost another 2 pounds last night. thats 7 total sooo far. 3 more and i'll have lost 10 pounds and i'll be 181 pounds. pretty exciting!!! i know i shouldnt be excited to weigh sooo much but its a good thing for me. i weighed 184 last may so 181 is the smallest i've been in years. i'm very excited to hit 175!!! i looked sooo good at 175. i'll be even more excited when i reach 150!!! man 150 is what i weighed in high school. and although i thought i was fat i was WAY smaller than i am now. and then at 150 i'll be just 20lbs away from my goal weight!
i think its easier for me to go by 20's. set a goal of 20lbs and then go to the next 20lbs. so far since 8-18-09 i've lost a total of 46lbs. the sad part is its really more like 60 cause i've gained back 20 over last summer and then ten at the end of january. i now know the results of cheating on a diet. 60lbs is what i want to lose NOW. and adding it up makes me mad that i could have already been half way there if i'd stuck to it.
oh well live and learn right!!! hope everyone enjoys the sun!!!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
2-19-2011
day 3 week 1 phase 1
day 2 wasn't too bad. not eating the delicious food that i make the girls is getting easier every day. lost 2.4 lbs since yesturday, thats a total 5.8 so far! i think thats pretty good! so i'm down to 186. my goal is getting closer pound by pound, day by day. also not as hungry as i was the first day. was able to wait till 930 today to have breakfast. i'm hoping by waiting for breakfast i wont be soo hungry at noon so i can have my lunch at like one or 2 then dinner at 5 like normal. its the time between eating thats hard. i get sooo hungry. but i'm doing good. and by this summer i should be lookin great!!!
today is gonna be a challenge.... gonna hang out with a friend and go see a movie. i'm sure there will be dinner in there somewhere...and then popcorn. i'm already getting dinner ready and my protien shakes through out the day. this is gonna be difficult. not sure how it will go. but if i have even 1 peice of popcorn its throwing me off three days. and even though i'm only 2 days into i've done really good. and i haven't given up.
day 2 wasn't too bad. not eating the delicious food that i make the girls is getting easier every day. lost 2.4 lbs since yesturday, thats a total 5.8 so far! i think thats pretty good! so i'm down to 186. my goal is getting closer pound by pound, day by day. also not as hungry as i was the first day. was able to wait till 930 today to have breakfast. i'm hoping by waiting for breakfast i wont be soo hungry at noon so i can have my lunch at like one or 2 then dinner at 5 like normal. its the time between eating thats hard. i get sooo hungry. but i'm doing good. and by this summer i should be lookin great!!!
today is gonna be a challenge.... gonna hang out with a friend and go see a movie. i'm sure there will be dinner in there somewhere...and then popcorn. i'm already getting dinner ready and my protien shakes through out the day. this is gonna be difficult. not sure how it will go. but if i have even 1 peice of popcorn its throwing me off three days. and even though i'm only 2 days into i've done really good. and i haven't given up.
Friday, February 18, 2011
2-18-2011
WHOA!!! just weighed myself and i've already lost 3.4 pounds. I really need to put the battery away for the scale. This could become very addicting!
Yesturday was HARD, and thats an understatement. The habit of tasting food when yuo are cooking is very difficult to break. Taking bites of the girls foods is also another habit that is hard to break. Preschool is hard...yesturday they had cinimon rolls and cupcakes. Normally i'd just have a little snack. Self control is very hard when things smell soooo delicious. I just tried to convince myself that just cause things smell sooo good doesnt mean they are. I did not cheat once. I found myself a few times almost taking bites or tasting things. like when the cinnimon roll frosting got on my fingers it was almost impossible to put my hands under water and wash it off rather than lick it.
3.4 pounds in one day is a good motivation to not cheat today. Lets see how the weekend goes. Supposed to go see a movie saturday with some friends. The smell of the buttery movie theatre popcorn filling the air. oh man.... i'm already drooling for it. But i think i can say no. I'm excited to see how the first week goes
Yesturday was HARD, and thats an understatement. The habit of tasting food when yuo are cooking is very difficult to break. Taking bites of the girls foods is also another habit that is hard to break. Preschool is hard...yesturday they had cinimon rolls and cupcakes. Normally i'd just have a little snack. Self control is very hard when things smell soooo delicious. I just tried to convince myself that just cause things smell sooo good doesnt mean they are. I did not cheat once. I found myself a few times almost taking bites or tasting things. like when the cinnimon roll frosting got on my fingers it was almost impossible to put my hands under water and wash it off rather than lick it.
3.4 pounds in one day is a good motivation to not cheat today. Lets see how the weekend goes. Supposed to go see a movie saturday with some friends. The smell of the buttery movie theatre popcorn filling the air. oh man.... i'm already drooling for it. But i think i can say no. I'm excited to see how the first week goes
Thursday, February 17, 2011
2-17-2011
day 1, week 1, phase 1
The water in the morning is something I'm DEFINETLY gonna have to get used to. I love water all day long, but for some reason in the morning it tastes like butt. I have to get a total of 64 ounces of water a day minimum. With the water bottle I'm using its about 3.2 of those water bottles not to mention the 21 ounces of water I'm already taking in with the protien shake. But, I'm gonna keep drinking the 3 bottles of water. I also have a costco package of bottled water in my trunk for on the go convience. The food and the shakes is easy.. I was worried about not getting in enough water. Doing research online I found out that when people doing this diet didnt get enough water they had a "low" weight loss week. Other than the week i'm on my period, I don't want ANY "low" weight loss weeks.
This diet works by eliminating your stock pile of carbohydrates. You store 3 days worth of carbs in your body. This diet teaches your body to use up that extra stock. SOOO...if i cheat even one skittle. It will take 3 days to get back on track. THREE days, not bad but lets say i did it once a week for a month. thats 12 days. It adds up fast. With the amount of weight I'm trying to lose its ALREADY gonna take me a long time, so every day counts. Not to mention that Nick is paying for all the protien, food, and vitamins I have to take. One "oops" and he said he's not paying for it anymore. I'm not gonna test him.
The hardest part for me on cheating in this diet is, making food for the girls. Not to mention my birthday and Natalie's birthday coming up. Luckily it's more than a month away. I will have lost at least 20lbs by then and I think thats motivation to keep on going. 20 pounds is a third of the weight I want to lose.
I know this isn't going to be easy, and my will power is not the best, but here I am.. at day one.
LETS DO THIS!!!
The water in the morning is something I'm DEFINETLY gonna have to get used to. I love water all day long, but for some reason in the morning it tastes like butt. I have to get a total of 64 ounces of water a day minimum. With the water bottle I'm using its about 3.2 of those water bottles not to mention the 21 ounces of water I'm already taking in with the protien shake. But, I'm gonna keep drinking the 3 bottles of water. I also have a costco package of bottled water in my trunk for on the go convience. The food and the shakes is easy.. I was worried about not getting in enough water. Doing research online I found out that when people doing this diet didnt get enough water they had a "low" weight loss week. Other than the week i'm on my period, I don't want ANY "low" weight loss weeks.
This diet works by eliminating your stock pile of carbohydrates. You store 3 days worth of carbs in your body. This diet teaches your body to use up that extra stock. SOOO...if i cheat even one skittle. It will take 3 days to get back on track. THREE days, not bad but lets say i did it once a week for a month. thats 12 days. It adds up fast. With the amount of weight I'm trying to lose its ALREADY gonna take me a long time, so every day counts. Not to mention that Nick is paying for all the protien, food, and vitamins I have to take. One "oops" and he said he's not paying for it anymore. I'm not gonna test him.
The hardest part for me on cheating in this diet is, making food for the girls. Not to mention my birthday and Natalie's birthday coming up. Luckily it's more than a month away. I will have lost at least 20lbs by then and I think thats motivation to keep on going. 20 pounds is a third of the weight I want to lose.
I know this isn't going to be easy, and my will power is not the best, but here I am.. at day one.
LETS DO THIS!!!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
2-16-11
....THE IDEAL PROTIEN DIET.....
lose weight fast, no exercise, feel great..... sounds like a gimick i know. And trust me I've tried them all! But i've heard AMAZING true facts about this diet. Its really expensive and you can get it from one of the few doctors around that participate in the program. But i'm doing it the cheap way. Lets hope it works. I'm doing my own protien brand that has similar properties to the "ideal" brand. I'm doing EVERYTHING you're supposed to do with it though, and even bought the supplements you have to take.
its gonna be hard. But we've calculated it out and in about 5 months I will have lost 60lbs to leave me at 130lbs.. sexy i know. You know even if it helps me lose 40lbs fast i'd be happy with that. i'd still look better than i do now. and i know i could lose the last 20 myself with diet and exercise. I'm doing this more for the FAST TRACK that they promise you. When this diet is done i can start exercising and becoming toned... There is a great looking person inside of me that is dying to get out.
the hardest part of this diet is the first phase. I have to stay on the first phase till i lose 90% of my total weight loss goal..... until i lose 54 pounds. thats a lot!!!! then the second phase i have to stay on till i lose the last 10% of my goal weight. the last two phases are reintroducing and maintaining. when i am done with all 4 phases i will just go back to eating healthy like i normally do, add some exercising and a splurge once a week and i'll be able to keep it off. Also after 5 months of not having these splurge items, i doubt i'll be dying to go back to eating all that crap.
Just the last couple days i've been eating all the bad foods i know i can't have anymore. And it has been making me sick. my stomach has been in knots and i've been all gassy. also the foods just dont taste right.
tomorrow is day one of phase one. wish me luck
lose weight fast, no exercise, feel great..... sounds like a gimick i know. And trust me I've tried them all! But i've heard AMAZING true facts about this diet. Its really expensive and you can get it from one of the few doctors around that participate in the program. But i'm doing it the cheap way. Lets hope it works. I'm doing my own protien brand that has similar properties to the "ideal" brand. I'm doing EVERYTHING you're supposed to do with it though, and even bought the supplements you have to take.
its gonna be hard. But we've calculated it out and in about 5 months I will have lost 60lbs to leave me at 130lbs.. sexy i know. You know even if it helps me lose 40lbs fast i'd be happy with that. i'd still look better than i do now. and i know i could lose the last 20 myself with diet and exercise. I'm doing this more for the FAST TRACK that they promise you. When this diet is done i can start exercising and becoming toned... There is a great looking person inside of me that is dying to get out.
the hardest part of this diet is the first phase. I have to stay on the first phase till i lose 90% of my total weight loss goal..... until i lose 54 pounds. thats a lot!!!! then the second phase i have to stay on till i lose the last 10% of my goal weight. the last two phases are reintroducing and maintaining. when i am done with all 4 phases i will just go back to eating healthy like i normally do, add some exercising and a splurge once a week and i'll be able to keep it off. Also after 5 months of not having these splurge items, i doubt i'll be dying to go back to eating all that crap.
Just the last couple days i've been eating all the bad foods i know i can't have anymore. And it has been making me sick. my stomach has been in knots and i've been all gassy. also the foods just dont taste right.
tomorrow is day one of phase one. wish me luck
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
2-9-2011
Yesturday I went PANTS shopping!!! Yes, I said it. The one thing EVERY girl/woman hates!! No matter the size you wear you still hate it. They fit your butt but not your waste. They dont look right with your shoes.. or shirts. You like a pair but the stiching and pockets are, eh, not too cute. Odd sizes, even sizes, tall, regular, petite, plus size, juniors, slim fit, relaxed fit, low rise, flair, wide leg, skinny, jeggings, boot cut.......COME ON!!!!! Then along with all these differet "types" of jeans they are completely different between brands. Don't even get me started on how the different colors of the jeans are different fits as well.
My current pants were just getting too big. I couldnt keep them up. nothing was working. I had no choice BUT to take the girls to the mall and just do it! I was in luck, Khols was having a killer sale on their jeans. 17.99!!!! My day got infinetly better... I was thinking, this is a good sign. So i grab two sizes...a 17 and a 15, my current jeans were a 16 (but they were old and well worn so probably stretched out a bunch).
I gave my self the benifit of the doubt and tried on the 17's. It was a disaster!!! WAY WAY WAY too big... AWESOME!!! So I tried on the 15's. They were a little snug as i pulled them up, so I got a little nervous. But when i buttoned them up they fit really good. Its been sooo long since i've had a pair of jeans fit me soooo well.
People don't understand how hard it is to shop for clothes when you are fat. Everything (even the xxl'x) are way too tight, they are made to fit smaller girls. You find something that is WAY cute and go to try it on and oh, there's all your fat for the world to see. UGGG!!! Nothing fits you right. The clothing industry thinks that cause you are a size 18 you are 6ft tall and only make that size in Talls! what. really. Or you have to spend double what the skinnier girls spend for a pair of jeans that are your size.
Being fat is in no way jolly, or fun. It isn't what I wanted to be when I grew up. I remember being younger and going to the store with my dad and seeing a obessed person and telling my dad 'wow if i EVER weighed over 180lbs just shoot me!' Thankfully he did not shoot me when I reached that 180 nor did he shoot me when I went over 200. I'm embarrassed. Truely I am. And at almost 28 years old its really hard for me to loose the weight that only took me 3 months to put on.
Things will get better. They will change. I hope this summer I will look great in a bathing suit at the lake. That my confiedence will go up. Shopping will be easier. Going in public will be less of an axiety. I won't be embarrased when I run into people when I go to Bremerton or Silverdale.
What I don't get is that I don't have a lot of supporters. People I THOUGHT were friends. Its like when I got pregnant with natalie, my friends were non existant. The same thing is happening now. I know now who my TRUE friends are and I'd rather have 3 AMAZING friends then 20 half ass, fair weather friends. Nick and my friends are my biggest supporters.
Keep me in your thoughts as I continue my journey to be a healthier, prettier, skinner, happier me!!!
My current pants were just getting too big. I couldnt keep them up. nothing was working. I had no choice BUT to take the girls to the mall and just do it! I was in luck, Khols was having a killer sale on their jeans. 17.99!!!! My day got infinetly better... I was thinking, this is a good sign. So i grab two sizes...a 17 and a 15, my current jeans were a 16 (but they were old and well worn so probably stretched out a bunch).
I gave my self the benifit of the doubt and tried on the 17's. It was a disaster!!! WAY WAY WAY too big... AWESOME!!! So I tried on the 15's. They were a little snug as i pulled them up, so I got a little nervous. But when i buttoned them up they fit really good. Its been sooo long since i've had a pair of jeans fit me soooo well.
People don't understand how hard it is to shop for clothes when you are fat. Everything (even the xxl'x) are way too tight, they are made to fit smaller girls. You find something that is WAY cute and go to try it on and oh, there's all your fat for the world to see. UGGG!!! Nothing fits you right. The clothing industry thinks that cause you are a size 18 you are 6ft tall and only make that size in Talls! what. really. Or you have to spend double what the skinnier girls spend for a pair of jeans that are your size.
Being fat is in no way jolly, or fun. It isn't what I wanted to be when I grew up. I remember being younger and going to the store with my dad and seeing a obessed person and telling my dad 'wow if i EVER weighed over 180lbs just shoot me!' Thankfully he did not shoot me when I reached that 180 nor did he shoot me when I went over 200. I'm embarrassed. Truely I am. And at almost 28 years old its really hard for me to loose the weight that only took me 3 months to put on.
Things will get better. They will change. I hope this summer I will look great in a bathing suit at the lake. That my confiedence will go up. Shopping will be easier. Going in public will be less of an axiety. I won't be embarrased when I run into people when I go to Bremerton or Silverdale.
What I don't get is that I don't have a lot of supporters. People I THOUGHT were friends. Its like when I got pregnant with natalie, my friends were non existant. The same thing is happening now. I know now who my TRUE friends are and I'd rather have 3 AMAZING friends then 20 half ass, fair weather friends. Nick and my friends are my biggest supporters.
Keep me in your thoughts as I continue my journey to be a healthier, prettier, skinner, happier me!!!
Monday, February 7, 2011
2-7-11
no weight loss to report. but none gained either. that is great news for me. i jsut have to remember.... i want 50 in a year...thtas like 4.1 lbs a month. i've lost TEN in january. so technically i'm WAY ahead of track!... and i anticipate losing about the same this month! just had to get through super bowl and a ufc fight.
had a really good work out today. thanks to my friend melanie for pushing me to go the whole 30 minutes! maybe tomorrow i can do 30 minutes again but 2.5 miles. maybe. we'll see. i have a long day tomorrow and i wont get to work out till late that night. probably wont even happen. i'm not gonna lie.
hopefully i get back on track and start losing more weight. i have to get a routine down and start working out in the mornings for when i start working again this summer. hopefully i can find a softball team to play on...or something. my friend wants me to do the indoor soccer thing and i dont think it will work out this season but it is something to look forward to for next season!
I"m gettting excited for the nice weather to come. cold is fine. its the sun i need. get the girls for walks to the lake. hopefully nick will buy me a NEW bike trailer and a new bike so natalie and i can ride bikes around maggie lake. i think everything will wokr itself out. i started taking vitamins so i cna build my immune system back up. i cant be getting sick anymore otherwise my butt will be parked on the couch
thank you everyone for your continued support and for reading my horrible writing
had a really good work out today. thanks to my friend melanie for pushing me to go the whole 30 minutes! maybe tomorrow i can do 30 minutes again but 2.5 miles. maybe. we'll see. i have a long day tomorrow and i wont get to work out till late that night. probably wont even happen. i'm not gonna lie.
hopefully i get back on track and start losing more weight. i have to get a routine down and start working out in the mornings for when i start working again this summer. hopefully i can find a softball team to play on...or something. my friend wants me to do the indoor soccer thing and i dont think it will work out this season but it is something to look forward to for next season!
I"m gettting excited for the nice weather to come. cold is fine. its the sun i need. get the girls for walks to the lake. hopefully nick will buy me a NEW bike trailer and a new bike so natalie and i can ride bikes around maggie lake. i think everything will wokr itself out. i started taking vitamins so i cna build my immune system back up. i cant be getting sick anymore otherwise my butt will be parked on the couch
thank you everyone for your continued support and for reading my horrible writing
Thursday, February 3, 2011
2-3-11
i think i'm in a funk...
...i really dont have the energy to work out and when i do i feel like i'm doing it half ass.
not sure what my deal is....i really dont want to look like i do forever
with natalie's cheer today i ran outta time to run. i need to get showered dressed, and dress the girls too.
tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow WILL be better, and i dont have to be at cheer until 630 instead of 430 like today. i'm gonna have to push myself really hard to work out this weekend. hopefully i get some support from nick on that. although its not his fault. i get lazy on the weekends. we always have somewhere to be. or something to do, and this weekend is no different.
on the positive note. i have NOT gained any weight. i have not lost any either :-( but it will all come soon enough. i have a year to lose 50lbs. (even if i dont want to take that WHOLE year)
...i really dont have the energy to work out and when i do i feel like i'm doing it half ass.
not sure what my deal is....i really dont want to look like i do forever
with natalie's cheer today i ran outta time to run. i need to get showered dressed, and dress the girls too.
tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow WILL be better, and i dont have to be at cheer until 630 instead of 430 like today. i'm gonna have to push myself really hard to work out this weekend. hopefully i get some support from nick on that. although its not his fault. i get lazy on the weekends. we always have somewhere to be. or something to do, and this weekend is no different.
on the positive note. i have NOT gained any weight. i have not lost any either :-( but it will all come soon enough. i have a year to lose 50lbs. (even if i dont want to take that WHOLE year)
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