Wednesday, March 30, 2011

3-30-2011

SOOO its already the end of march. Where did this month go! I'm on week 7 right now and I'm feeling pretty great! I started this diet out at 191.8 and today I'm down to 161.8!!! 30lbs in 7 weeks. AMAZING!!! I couldn't have done it without the support from my friend Shyla and from Nick. I am now happy to say that I am !!!!!!HALF WAY DONE!!!!! 30 more pounds to go!! I can't wait!! hopefully another 7 weeks would be nice! I think I'm more suprised not by the weight loss but by my will power. I'm hoping this carries over after this diet is over. I am actually eager to start working out again and toning my body! I have just about 4 more weeks till I am going to Arizona!! in 4 weeks I will hopefully be down another 15lbs making me 146! Arizona I hope you are ready for me! I'm very excited to see my brothers. Peter especially cause he hasn't seen me since christmas and I was about 209 then. Yes I said that correctly....209...so since january I have actually lost a total of 48lbs, and since chloe was born i have roughly lost 69lbs!!! If ya'll want to know how that felt to be carrying around 69lbs....go down to the store and pick up 7 bags of potatoes! THAT'S a lot huh!!! Thirty more and It's over, down 69lbs, 30 will be like a cake walk! I can't believe I'm on the down hill side of losing weight. 30 doesnt seem as bad as 100lbs i had origanally wanted to lose (230 to 130). I can't believe I had a 100 lbs to lose. what a fat ASS!!! holy cow. No wonder I feel amazing. Still fat, but getting better by the day.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

3-26-2011

SLOW WEEK!! lost only 2lbs, but at least i lost something right. Aunt flow was here so that really slows down the weight loss on this diet. No big deal though, today i was down 1.5lbs from yesturday so i know that this will be a great week.

Tomorrow is Natalie's birthday party, and i'm kinda nervous... ALOT OF DELICIOUS FOODS!! TEMPTATIONS!!! 120 lumpia, hamburgers, hotdogs, potatoe salad, chips, dip, ect!!!! and i get a salad, a protien shake and some water! I really hope my lumpia turned out, I couldnt taste it so i have no idea if it turned out. I put all the same things in it i usually do so i think it should be fine. We'll see how tomorrow works out.

Started working last Thursday. That's been rough. Shipper offered to buy quiznos (yum!) but i had to figure out how to politely turn it down. When she brought it home it smelled soooo good. I love when shippers buys us food. But i had a salad, a protien shake and some water. It's okay though. almost there. then i'll be able to splurge a littel bit. i work monday and tuesday so far next week. packing lunches is gonna be the hardest part. some days i'm runing too late, so i get lunch and the girls get pj's.

all in all i think i'm doing a really good job at this diet, i haven't cheated once!!! and i think this is week 6 so a month and a half without cheating.. pretty good!! oh and 27lbs lost!! amazing!! i'm going to look and FEEL sooo amazing this summer! i can't wait.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

3-21-2011

I know its been about 10 days since I've posted a blog, but I've been uninspired. I'm done to 165lbs, very proud of that. I look amazing!!! (to say the least) And I feel great.

Temptations are everywhere though. My birthday we all went to red robin. I had a chicken cesear salad plain, and I brought my own dressing. I guestimated 5oz of chicken, and I gave my birthday treat they give you to Natalie and her cousin. They seemed to enjoy it! Also we went to Seattle on Monday and I was still able to just eat what i was supposed to. Even eating at Denny's I just did the same thing I did at red robin. Ordered only what i was allowed to have. I'd say I'm doing remarkably well. I'm really trying to figure out some new reciepes... Kinda getting bored with the same ol' same ol'. the food I eat is very very good, but I'm getting bored.

On another note I just made Natalie the best desert EVER!!! Crumbled brownies with cookies and cream ice cream, topped with caramel suruyp, and mini rainbow colored chocolate chips. and a butterscotch and chocolate chip cookie on the side. DELICIOUS!!!

You know what I've been doing to NOT eat the crappy foods.....SMELLING them. Weird I know, but it works. I can't believe in 5lbs I will be halfway to my goal.

There are things I'm already having to replace. I'm in DESPERATE need of a new bra!!! and tank tops. For my birthday I went shopping and got some MEDIUM!!! tops and sweaters but I realized that you can't wear a medium top over a large (and definetly not xl) tank tops. opps, wish i would have figured that out when old navy was having their 5 dollar essentials sale! arg!! oh well. I do know that there are some of my friends that are reaping the benefits of me having to get rid of my clothes. I've purged pants, shirts, sweatshirts, long sleeve shirts, and i've thrown away underwear that don't fit anymore. I start working thursday so I will have extra money to get the things I need thankfully!

I wonder what I will look like at 130lbs. Hopefully really HOT!! I know at 165 I feel great, I'm sure at 130 I will feel EVEN better.

I'm kinda excited to start going downhill soon. 27lbs more till I can be off phase 1. But at the rate I'm going it should be the begining of May. hope fully that last 10% of my weight in phase 2 will go quick, I'm ready to be done with this diet and onto maintaning and exercising! I'm so ready for this summer. HOT MOMMA COMING THROUGH!!! WATCH OUT!! lol!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

3-12-2011

temptations, temptations, temptations.

although it seems that i am losing weight very easy..it is just the oppisite of that. some days are way harder than others to not cheat. LIke the last couple days for instance. nick and the girls had papa murphy's for dinner, then cheesy bread, and finally some cookies. YUM! i had Chicken stir fry and califlour rice. Not exactly as good as pizza. Then for lunch the girls had heated up pizza. NOW i was drooling, i love p-murphs next day recooked in the oven. It's soo good, with some crushed red peppers, a little salt, and some ranch to dip it in. The NEED to have that pizza over my salad was un ignorable.... but i didnt. then after dropping the girls of at their aunties i was starving, which usually i would swing through a fast food on my way home and have dinner. nope waiting till i got home and had eggs and spinach. then when it was time to have my protein shake that was hard, i was making it in the middle of a sea of crap on the counter, pizza, cookies, apple cinnoman muffins, oh man....it took all i had to make the shake instead.

now if i were single this would be no problem. it would be all the food i would have to see. now with kids and a bf its not that simple. i have to make food all day for the girls. fruits, and toasts, and mac n cheese's oh man not to forget grilled cheese sandwiches and soup!!!! so the fact that i am losing weight as rapidly as i am really isnt with out a lot of work!!! the real test will be natalie's birthday party. making all that delicious foods and not being able to taste them! frying up lumpia and not being able to eat half! OH MAN!!

the good news with this is i'm down to 170.2!!! whoot whoot!!! to me thats amazing! i think when i get under 170 i might cry! lol!!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

3-10-2011

wowza!!! 5lbs in one week! i'm stoked! down to 173 now. i'm amazed everyday with this diet... its nice that when i have a rough day, like yesterday i made some apple cinnamon muffins from scratch and never had them before. i was DYING to know how they turned out. but i didn't eat them. and then today i am down a pound from yesterday, it all seems worth it then.

tonight i'm gonna try some califlower rice. what little research i did online only had positive reviews so...might as well. i'll let you all know how it turned out. then on friday i'm gonna try some turnip fries, a little nervous for those cause i dont even know what a turnip looks like! lol. gotta do some grocery shopping today while natalie is at preschool, the hardest part is finding things for nick and the girls to eat.

well here's to hoping that week 4 is just as successful as week 3. the faster i lose my weight the sooner i can look hot in may when i see my brothers, and the sooner i can get off this diet!

i strongly recommend this diet! go to www.idealprotein.com

Monday, March 7, 2011

3-7-2011

day 4 week 3 phase 1

so for the last two days i've been at 175...i was kinda bummed out about it today but i did the math and i'm still down 3lbs since thursday. so that made feel a little better about not losing weight for a couple of days. also nick used some seasonings that didnt ahve any nutrition facts on it so i'm not sure if it was OKAY to use. who knows... my friend told me that she went a whole week with out losing weight...so i think its okay.

i got the vanilla protein drinks this time...and i do not recommend them!!! i wonder if rite aide will take it back.. i didnt mean to get the vanilla one. hmm. i guess i could call. and i tried the walden farms ketchup too and it was discusting!!! dont know why i got it in the first place...i dont like ketchup. hopefully qfc will exchange that for the ranch one. i like waiting for thursdays, i wonder what the scale will show this week. last week it was 4.4lbs.

oh and does everyone like my ticker...pretty cool. natalie picked out the design and everything. lol. but yay 45lbs to go!!

Friday, March 4, 2011

3-4-12

day one of week 3.....

its exciting to know that the weeks are just flying by! i can't wait to have some pork ribs! or even just some fruit.

my weigh in yesturday (my weekly weigh in day) was 178.0 which is a loss of 4.4lbs in a week!!!! WHOOHOO!! i think i deserve a pat on the back! *pat pat* and today my weight was 176.4 even better! i'm very excited to see where this is going! i want to lose at least 6 more pounds by march 27th, i know that there is nothing i can do to accelerate the weight loss. just have to keep on trucking! i have almost 3 and a half weeks till natalie's birthday...at an average of lets just say 4lbs a week, i could lose up to about 12lbs by then that would leave me at 164.4, which would be AMAZING!!!! here's to hoping.

Now i'm not saying this is easy....this last couple days i've been struggling. nick brought home chinese food last night and make me a stir fry....hmm, well i love chinese food :( i just pretended that cause it was from safeway (which IS my favorite) that it was probably old, and seeing that we live about 15 minutes away it would have been cold. so i it seemed unappealing to me at that point. i made toast for chloe this mroning adn i LOVE toast....arg! but i'm doing pretty good. haven't even had a nibble. oh then last night natalie watched a movie with popcorn adn i had a protien shake. not fair!!! that was our thing...chloe goes to bed, we watcha movie and eat some popcorn. BUT knowing that i lost 1.5 lbs since yesturday its rewarding when i dont splurge. no other diet has made me feel like this. (trust me i've tried them all) i think the scale helps you to stay focased. i weigh myself everyday. and if there is no weight loss that day i reflect on the previous day to make today even better. like did i drink enough water. did i over measure on the veggies. things like that.

for all of you that are still reading this. thank you for your support....and sarah... i can't wait to have you do some photos of me when this is all done! i wish i had the courage to do true before pictures, you know, bare it all....

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

3-1-2011

WOW MARCH ALREADY!!! where has time gone!

well as i'm waiting patiently for my daughters to wake up i decided to weigh myself...178lbs!!! amazing! 4.4lbs since thursday! this diet really does work. i feel good, i am looking great.

the thing i can't get past is why did it take me getting soo fat to be confident at the size i was when i met nick???? when i was in job corp and when i got out i thought i was gross! just a fat ass girl that no one liked... when in actuallity i have pictures of what i looked like in job corp and i strive to look like that again. but yet i hid myself thinking i was fat. in high school i was the smallest so far at 150lbs and yet....i thought i was fat... boys didn't like me. at least they didn't persue me so i figured i was fat and ugly. i look the same as i did in high school yet somehow 28lbs heavier i feel prettier. more attractive. sexy even. and i'm sure as i lose more weight my face will get thinner along with my body and i will have even more confidence. i just wish i had this kind of confidence in myself 6-7 years ago